i feel so bad.. is this the feeling of missing someone? i miss him so much.. i never think i can marry him, but it’s possible for me to be in love with him.. i’m confused with my own feeling.. how can i fell in love with him? this is what i usually feel when i’m in relationship with someone, but how this happened to me? i never meet him personally? am i having delusional thought? i miss him like he’s my love.. oh.. me and my feeling.. never end
feeling towards bigbang for today
hi.. it will be a short post… i will seat for exam this saturday and try to guess what am i doing right now? flirting with bigbang!! arrghh.. and this is my thought for today..
no bigbang’s songs for the whole week.. it’ll be a hard time for me…
hmm.. i see GD as my man now but see TOP as my favourite artist.. okay, i am not consider bigbang as idol.. they are my favourite artist.. one and only.. arrgghh.. so my ultimate bias go to TOP! confusing??
IF
if i can make bigbang’s members as someone in my life.. it’ll be
SEUNGRI as my BIG BROTHER
i don’t know why, i always see his maknae’s charm, so I want to be his younger sister, i want to see his cute side but at the same time, his another side.. I always want to experience to e his younger sister.
TAEYANG AS MY FATHER
hmm.. maybe Youngbae always suit as a mother for bigbang, but for me, i want to feel how he will protect me from all the harm, because he once said that, he want to be a superhero to his child.. wow!
GD as my BESTFRIEND
He always treasure his friends. I didn’t say others not, but he always say that his friend is the important person.. he really value his friendship in the highest place [i think]..
DAESUNG as my husband..
okay, this not because i ship daesung the most, but somehow his character like GD once said in Healing Camp
“If there is something good happened, he’ll think it’s not because of others, and when something bad happened, it’s because of him.”
well, i want to be his right person, so that he’ll be able to share his worries with me. I want to give full support to him. and i think by be his wife, i’ll be able to do that.
and last but not least, TOP.. I dont know what character suit him the most.. hmm.. well he’s my ultimate bias..
TOP a my limited figure collection. especially made for me..
Haha, i’m crazy now. he is a human and now i want him to be a figure? okay, i’m totally insane.. he is my ultimate bis, so i don’t want to share him with anyone.. he’s my possesion, and I am the only one who have him.. I am a greedy person..
frust
I am so tension.. the last reply from them is two days ago, n just now they replied that the one who is supposed to check the payment is out of the town.. wae!! why not saying this two days ago.. why making me more and more impatient… wae!!! you just make me crying! why they only tell me now!! and I have to wait until next week?????????? why, it’s almost 3 weeks.. Oh My God.. wae.. please be strong.. I even dream that i got the album already… :(
apabila tak boleh tidur
Walaupun malam masih muda, mata kamu seakan -akan tidak berdaya lagi untuk tetap terbuka. Kamu tidak mahu tidur di bilik kerana menanti kepulangan Choi Seunghyun. kamu mengambil keputusan untuk tidur di sofa ruang tamu sahaja sambil berharap kamu akan sedar apabila Seunghyun pulang.
10 minit.. 20 minit…
Mata kamu tetap berkedip-kedip. Kamu berusaha untuk tidur namun tidak berjaya. Kamu mengiring ke kanan dan ke kiri berulang-ulang kali. Tiba-tiba kamu tersedar Seunghyun sudah berdiri di hadapan kamu.
Seunghyun [S] : Kenapa sayang, tak boleh tidur?
Kamu [K] : Hurmm..
Kamu mahu ke dapur mengambilkan air untuknya tetapi ditahan olehnya. Seunghyun duduk di hujung sofa tempat kamu berbaring tadi. Seunghyun menepuk-nepuk pahanya.
k: ??
S: Mari sini, baring kat oppa…
Kamu menuruti kehendaknya. Setelah kamu berbaring beralaskan pahanya..
s: Kesian sayang, nak tidur tapi tak boleh tidur… Rindu oppa sampai tak boleh tidur ke?
k: …
Seunghyun mengelus-ngelus lembut rambut kamu sambil menepuk-nepuk perlahan.. Dia turut menyanyikan lullaby untukmu…
Kamu tersenyum sambil memejamkan mata sehingga kamu tertidur..
Pada keesokan harinya, kamu bangun dan mendapati kamu masih di ribaannya. Kamu melihat dia sedang tidur sambil duduk dan tangannya masih berada di hujung rambutmu.
